eeyore_grrl | familial

		familial

candle flicker
	tea & book
lights are dim
	i close my eyes and take a look
creating screen
	to see my fears
i cried so much 
	i nearly drowned in tears

fuck that 
		here i am
stronger than
		any man

i don’t care if you were there 
	when i was made
egg & sperm
	mental dna can change

i am your daughter
	in name alone
simply because you could not
	apologize on the phone

no, that is a lie
	you see
it’s because you could not show your love
	for me

i tried for years
	to win you back
to love you, my father
	without verbal attack
but here we are	
	44 years past birth
& while your continued love
	would have been nice

i likely would have paid
	its painful worth

now i sit here
	my son slowly waking
i wonder if, to you,
	my love was worth taking

this game, it’s clear,
	is lost to us both
i see no more chance for our
	familial growth

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