just like that
                                                    for Jason Rheubin Rasmus 12/20/72 - 5/26/19				



words fail in the face of death
they left on amorphous wings
	wings of breath & love
	wings seen & 
			unseen

because after
		days & months & years

he died
	
	just like that 
& I am my mother’s only child
		showering in tears
				       & forgetting
	
you angered me so fucking often
	but you are 
			blood & history
	      you are my brother
& what is left?
	a pinch of ashes around my neck
					& memories

		chasing rainbows & clay shot from a bb gun 
					into my stomach
					& smuggling an iguana into the country

you are so loved by so many
	with stories that last for hours
				   	days
					       months &
							years
you are
				gone

just like that
& your friends are now my family
			 my brother in absentia
		it takes a village to 
					replace you

just like that 
	my sister-in-law is so much more important

& you & I weren’t even all that close
		(to be honest)
but god
	I miss you, Jason
		      my brother
	the only one who could possibly 
					     know
				& comprehend
				         our childhood

just like that
	just like that

	you
	      are
			gone
& even surrounded by love
	I miss you
& feel so very, very
						alone







				release
					(for Jason Rasmus, aka J2)



life & death
      & love’s caress
      surround you like the air we breathe

brother, you are
	 	love & laughter
		frustration & fascination
		caring & carefree

you are mythic in nature
	oral tradition passing you on
	from person to person to person
	a way for your legend
		(your legacy)
				to live on in us

us, your family & family of friends 
us, those still tethered to life
us, crying here on a mountaintop
				because your breath has stopped
		
				& ours continues on
us, sharing, compiling 
	your life into stories to tell
			        to remember
			        to smile
			        & laugh
us, now family to each other
	made blood by the death
					(of a legend)
and we release you

we
	release
		     you

to the snow covered mountains and skateparks
	up the mountain & to the sun
	
	ride into the light
	cross the river styx
	be one with the spirit
	join the shadow people
	take a railslide
		into your future of haunts


just be sure to know:
		we love you  
		&   we   release   you



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