Live Journal Idol Exhibit B Week 8(a) - Topic Design Flaw

[eeyore_grrl]

                flawed

there is a design flaw in my serotonin
the wrong amount to go from cell to cell
the wrong amount to keep me happy and smiling
when i live in a world of plenty surrounded by love

and i fight it
tooth and nail
ply it with zoloft and sleeping aides
try to convince it to grow
up the stores
up the manufacturing capabilities

but sometimes i still sit
with the sadness of a poet
fighting against the legacies of sexton and plath
fighting against legacies

i write my little poems
trying to share the world of the depressed 
trying to share the words that flow through me
to make someone else feel a little less alone

there is a flaw in the marketing department of my brain
convincing others that i am strong 
while inside i cower and snap like a caged animal
           fighting only myself
           fighting only
                                 myself

there was mis-hiring in shipping
requiring the wrong degree
    or perhaps the wrong job was posted and an intern got confused
but those lovely little packets that should make me happy
don’t arrive where they should
mis-labeled or mis-delivered, it doesn’t matter they go lost from me

there is a flaw

----------------

This is one of two entries for this week's lj idol. There are plenty more by others coming your way. http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/671853.html

If it is an open vote I will post voting info when it arrives.

Voting Here: http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/673598.html?nc=7#comments
There are four separate polls, I'm in two.

Comments

[x-disturbed-x.livejournal.com]

I feel like that about my aspergers. There's a flaw in my design.

I really like this. I'm sure plenty can relate.

[eeyore-grrl.livejournal.com]

didn't know about the aspergers. doesn't come across in your writing. for what that is worth.

thank you. i hope others can. loneliness is worse than the "disease" to me.

[x-disturbed-x.livejournal.com]

If you ever met or spoke to me it would probably be pretty obvious. :P Thanks though. I sometimes wondered if the awkward way I say things come across in what I write.

I definitely agree. :/

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[eeyore-grrl.livejournal.com]

thanks.
(hugs) back

[halfshellvenus.livejournal.com]

I was pretty sure someone would approach the topic this way, and I like how this turned out. It's truthful, and it's plaintive, and I don't see how even those who do not the experience could fail to understand it.

[kajel.livejournal.com]

I really like the end and how you link it to a warehouse. or perhaps the wrong job was posted and an intern got confused Love this line.

[cheshire23.livejournal.com]

there is a flaw in the marketing department of my brain


I think this is my favorite line.

[roina-arwen.livejournal.com]

I love the "flaw in the marketing department" line. This is lovely. (And there are five polls).

[cobalt-00.livejournal.com]

I'm sad I missed the voting - because I absolutely would have voted for this all four/five times. I really like it.