49 dead
maybe their names don’t matter
maybe i should just call them all by my own name
49 carey’s dead
would that make you feel something
but this is not all about me
this is about Andrea and Mercedes
this is about Geraldo and Jerald
this is about Luis
Luis
Luis
Luis
because four of them died that night
when their pulses were firing full blast
wrists and jugulars throbbing in time to the dance floor
hearts watching
because here
here it was supposed to be safe
safe to love, hold hands, dance hip to hip
and be
a dance floor is sanctity
latinx night at the club
49 dead
49 dead
49 dead
49 dead
let’s dance
let’s writhe to the beat of drums and guitar
let’s feel our heritage dancing in our hips
movement is safety
says the rabbit
says the prey
movement is safety
and i’m going to stand here
still
and tell you that love must go on
and tell you that i grieve for my siblings that died that night
and for Matthew Shepard and Harvey Milk
and for my friends that were broken for their gay
broken for identity
broken for love
let love prevail
49 dead
i light this candle for you all
for Luis
for Luis
for Luis
for Luis