eeyore_grrl | Recency Bias (Reply)

             Recency Bias

four days inpatient
an unplanned hospital stay
an undetermined amount of time
    soon
    soon i'll return to my family
                        my home
                        my life

and then i need to change
        medications worked out
        scheduled balance
          of busy versus time to regroup

and i need to beat my recency bias
                   to   the   ground

the recent past
             is not the whole of reality
             it is just a piece
          and i am 
                   NOT
          doomed to repeat it
                         again
                               and again

a sudden urge to die
       an overwhelming sense of dread and pointlessness
       is not the whole of my being
          not the whole of me

so today
      today i remember
   that Depression Lies
   that tomorrow is a new day

I Am Alive
     and grateful for my breath

I Am Alive
     and focused on the future
            not only the recent past

I Am Alive.

This was written for LJ Idol Season 9, Week 11.