the wolf
balance can be so hard
when to give
when to receive
when to back away slowly
and when to run
i try to be open
to keep my arms wide
to be there
to comfort
listen
but sometimes
(sometimes)
i can’t
i just
can’t
because i can feel myself draining away
word by word
hug by hug
disappearing
(into the sad)
so
i build barriers
gather protection
hang garlic from my neck
keep my fingers loaded with silver bullets
draw pentacles while i genuflect at the cross
and i build my house of brick
brick by brick
mortar by mortar
i get stronger
the howling wind at the door
rendered benign
the fire, brilliant and warm, nurtures me
feeds me
preserves me
please, come in
join me here
there is tea set out by the fire
there is warmth and safety
in my arms