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[eeyore_grrl]

			The Maginot Line

There were times when
	the tension built up
	      so that I could almost
	see it.
	 solid. 
	forming a wall
	built of 
	fear and longing
	like the maginot line
	impenetrable
	but easy to walk around

	if we dared.

“What is on the other side”
     we whispered to ourselves
	  (almost to each other)
      curious and confused
   	   by the internal ache
      that screamed
                      from me to you
                                    to me
		(like mirrors
		        set face to face).

I wanted answers
      that you couldn’t give
	(now I realize that there
	        are none
            and maybe  pushed
            too hard for decisions
		          clarity
	       but I just wanted it
                          to make sense).

To be honest, I didn’t 
	know what to want
	because you were a friend
                                     a woman
		          a mirror set face to face
                          against me
	I just wanted the air clear of confusion
		      and to possibly hold you
 		        murmuring sad stories
			and tales of daring
	until sleep arrived.

No defense is foolproof.
But we stumbled onto the secret of bypassing walls
	too late.



~cdr~
1996