Second Chance Idol - Nothing Good can come of this

[eeyore_grrl]

Broken

i sip from the bottle of broken dreams
i know that nothing good will come of this
that i will only feel better, number for thirty seconds
that he’ll know I’ve been drinking the second he lays eyes on me

nothing good ever comes from the burning of my throat
				       the numbing of my mind

so i set my sights towards healing
prescription antidepressants, sleeping concoctions, 10,000 steps a day

i focus on my son’s giggle, my fiance’s eyes, and little things to occupy my mind
logic puzzles, and coloring books, a kindle full of stories
baths in a soapy cauldron of steam and scent
candlelight. 

i wish to smash the bottle, quench the burning
live my life
		fully

i pick up the bottle
sip
sip
sip
nothing good can come of this

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This is an entry for Second Change Idol, The topic: Nothing Good Will Come of This.
Yes, it's true, I got voted out of the main contest and am now in the secondary contest that I don't fully understand...